Some days I feel invisible.
I know in all logical thought, I'm not but that doesn't keep me from feeling it on occasion.
Cooking, cleaning, laundry, diapers, bath time, snotty noses, referee, rule enforcer, school work, housework, punching bag, exhaustion.....you know the story. How easy it can be to feel like you get lost in it all til you are no longer seen but expected.
I adore my babies and cherish my moments with them. Of course with every struggle there is even more beautiful moments to hold on to. But truth be told I crave adult interaction....something this season of life rarely gives me. I long to hear the unspoken appreciation be spoken. I long to feel seen. But the question remains: seen by whom and for what? The Lord is doing a number on my heart to redefine the perceived importance I have placed on myself. He is opening my eyes to the life of invisability in a whole new way. Some days are harder than others and I find he tells me to slow down yet again. It is in these slow down moments that I find myself sitting in His powerful presence. Today, as I sat in the grass thinking about the state of invisibility, the Lord showed me that within that, I am right in the middle of the teeniest details of these children's lives. Details that no one-not even Adam-are a part of. I didnt have to speak. I didnt have to do anything. I was simply there to witness their existence in that moment. 
Me. no one else.
Mamas....if you are feeling invisible, please know you are not alone. No matter what it feels like, know God sees each and every second of your life and everything in between. You are not invisible. You are STRONG. you are BEAUTIFUL. you are IMPORTANT. you are LOVED. you are UNIQUE and as I continue to walk this journey, please know I am also praying for revelation to come to you so you may know just how perfectly cherished you truly are.
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